So, tell me about your heart
Yesterday, I posted a smallish bit on the kinds of blogs I don’t like and an example of one I do. One kind commenter made this excellent observation about blogs by “perfect” women, reaching a conclusion that I hadn’t realized myself, but is very true:
It sets an unrealistic picture and doesn’t tell me about their heart.
This led me to a little revelation about something entirely unrelated.
Most summers, at my church, there’s a Bible study that usually lasts for eight or 10 weeks. Historically, I’ve either been entirely uninterested, or interested only because it keeps me in contact with ladies who are either a) dear to my heart, or b) with whom I need to build relationship. However, my commitment typically wanes, and I find myself not attending after the first four or five weeks. I think all of the Bible studies, up to this point, have been Beth Moore ones, with workbooks and DVD lessons.
Now, God bless Beth Moore and all her onscreen warmth, but I just don’t feel a kinship with her; it seems like the struggles she’s had, I haven’t, and those that I do, she doesn’t. I don’t feel much of a meeting of the mind or heart or spirit with her. Plus, I have to get past my perception of her as the perfectly-put-together Church Lady, with big hair, lots of makeup, and expensive clothes in order to drink from the water she’s offering. I can do it, but it’s more of an excercise than a blessing. For me, attending Beth Moore Bible studies are more like, “I should do this. It’s good for me.” Like drinking cod liver oil, instead of being comforted with some homecooked soup and a caress on the forehead and gentle words when I’m sick.
This year, however, I’m gung-ho about the Bible study. I anticipated it greatly, and have enjoyed it immensely (though it’s only been going on for two weeks). Why? Because it was written and is being led by a woman who is very, very precious to me. Her name is Kathy, and while she’s very wise and Godly, she’s also very real. We have enough similarities that I can relate to her, but we have enough varied experiences and she with strengths in areas which I, so far, only aspire to, that I can really learn from her, too.
The above-quoted comment was completely revelational to me, about why I value this year’s Bible study: Kathy sets a realistic (though challenging) picture, and completely reveals her heart.
~sigh~ I so value transparency. I so value realism. I want to be challenged, and led “further up and further in” but for me, there’s a fine balance. If the leader is uber-perfect, I tend to get discouraged, rather than inspired, like “I could never do that. More so, I don’t think I want to do that.” With Kathy’s teaching, I’m inspired, and nowhere near discouraged.
So, if you’re reading, dear Kathy, thank you for all your efforts. They’re not in vain. 🙂 It’s a reminder to me of that truth: the very areas in which the enemy tries to destroy us, God uses for His glory, and for the building up of the Body of Christ.